Well, now that the family unit is all better, I started to freak out about my own issues. Isn't that the way it always works, after the dust settles you start to freak out about the things that you have tried so hard to ignore. Not to get into too much detail, but I have been trying not to accept something that really has been a problem since before I got married. I started off just denying it all together and then that moved into telling everyone that would bring it up that they were crazy now FINALLY I took a step that I was not prepared to take. After hearing it for years, I finally decided to "prove them all wrong". That attitude quickly turned into, "Oh My God what if they are right?". Then last night it turned into "Okay so if this isn't really an issue after all then what the HELL is wrong with me? Am I always going to be like this?" I think that when we view ourselves we don't see what others do. We never see, or simply ignore, the issues at hand. It takes a really strong person to reflect inward and try to identify and solve the issues. I think now I can truly call myself strong.